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I think the past week was totally boring, both in camp and at home. Didn't really do much last week, except calling the corporate comms/public affairs departmen of almost all the ministries. Totally not the job that I should be doing. In fact, all this liasing should be done by people who are more senior in rank than me!!!

Saturday I went down to get atered jeans from S & K, as well as got for my self a pair of Levi's jeans (508, tried 501 reborn but the cutting was so tight that it makes me look even thinner while 512 din't suit me as well unlike 508). Yea, its the first pair of Levi's that I'm owning. Popped by beetle bug to get a pair of shoes for the new year, now all that I need now is a real nice top.

And today is Sunday... Not much, except that I'm resting at home for today and preparing to book in later.

I'm not reading a lot of Econs these days....Once I cleared Memoirs of a geisha, I will start with one soon. Won't be doing linear algebra, instead should be reading up on new concepts.

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Shopping

I didn't do much over the weekend except shop around, but even so my rewards are relatively disappointing. Basically I've got 2 bottoms and a top, and they are all from S & K, so ya.... there's like a lack of variety in terms of style, but the clothes were too cheap that I couldn't resist buying a bit more.

Anyway I'm still searching for maybe 1 or 2 more tops (a shirt been one of them) as well as a pair of shoes. I'm not having much success in finding them so will appreciate it if somebody can offer me some good lobang somewhere for me to take a look.

I guess the following weekend will be spent on shopping for clothes again. Hmm, I've come to realise that I only go shopping with my camp mates or with girls, seems to me like all my other secondary school/jc guy friends don't shop much (well, I don't know, maybe they do but the shops that we always look at are shops like Adidas...). Hmm, don't know, maybe they don't like shopping??? Or just the disparity in taste?

Which brings me back to mind that when I go out with them, it is always to catch a movie or have dinner. I haven't watch a good movie in ages, but seriously speaking, there's not much good ones out there now also. Oh well, everybody seems to be real busy recently, maybe cause my batch people are getting commission soon so they have a lot of preparation to do (or is today their comissioning parade? I don't know).

Actually, my jc class seems to have died. Haven't really kept in contact with most of them. Hai~ And my secondary school friends, guess we usually just meet for parties or lanning, which I think is the dumbest thing that I will ever do outside. Not much point in me lanning also!

Hmmm, guess the only people whom I know that mastered the art of shopping are girls, as well as Jinmao. Haha....I don't know, but shopping can be real fun (I still remember shopping in Taiwan, that was really great!!!!!), as well as real tedious. The latter is currently the case for me now...

Anyway bought 2 cds, David Tao and Faye Wong. I like both, and both albums are worth every bit of my cash.

Lousy WeekEnd

This is a totally horrible and lousy weekend for me... I have no idea what I ate last night at the Bn dinner, but it totally destroyed my weekend. I think I'm down with food poisoning (had diarhorrea this morning, had to go to doctor to get so many funny types of medicine), and my body is aching all over. In addition, I'm like totally weak from head to toe. Luckily I'm feeling better now.

Hmmm, I slept a lot of hours today. I estimate from this morning to now, I've slept over 10 hours (well I calculated, for every half an hour that I was awake, I needed around 4 hours of sleep just to sustain it!!!) Think when I go back to camp I don't need so much sleep.

Sux....I wanted to go shopping today, but couldn't thanks to the illness. Haiz, guess I will keep that to next week. Then couldn't meet Kenny they all also. Horrible...

I'm now praying that I will be able to recover by tomorrow. I don't want to spend a weekend at home just sleeping...

Anyway, I added the song jing xing shi in. Hope you all like it~

Retro.....

I never know that I will like retro so much until recently. Its like all along, I only listen to English pop (that was way back when I was just in Sec 3), before making the shift to Chinese pop in year 1. Since then, I treated most English songs as junk, with the exception of a few as well as some bands such as coldplay, as well as a few other artistes whom i think are talented (Norah Jones, Avril Lavigne, etc.)

Well, and last year (or was it 2 years back) Yanz asked me whether I had those oldies such as My Valentine by Martina McBride. Well, the answer was a simple no, but then, she became my jukebox and I got quite a few good old songs from her such as Nothing Gonna Stop Us Now. I thought that that will just be all the contact that I will have with retro songs.

How wrong I was. Ever since my first visit to Mambo, wow! Retro songs have now become one of my most well like genre of music. Yea, I know its tough for you all to believe, but I've even borrowed the best of 60s cd (retro music) from elvin!!! Haha, the album is shiok!!! I can just listen non-stop to them, and one of my all-time favorite is "Square Rooms"!! SHioK!! Of course, there's "Never Gonna Give it Up" and "Together Forever". Sounds like I'm doing an advertisement for the album but there's really absolutely no need since its already topping the bestsellers chart already.

2 weeks and I'm already suffering from worker's fatigue. Amazing right. I feel like at the end of this month, I need a real long break just to recover, and this is like just 2 weeks after my 10 days of Dec. holidays. I never expect things to work out this way but life is always full of surprises!

Imagine my platoon, from one of the smallest to become the biggest in CCC last Dec, and then shrinking back again to the smallest this month (and we don't even turn up at the parades cause of work...), yea life is just shocking....

My monitor is dying.......I have no idea how I'm going to survive this night...... Anyway I want to get a new set of apparel for Chinese New Year. Ha...get a new image??? Hmmm, let's see how things work out......

This is officially my 2nd year in army (actually its yesterday!). How time really flies.....

My bunk is perpetually empty half the time or should I mean that its always half full. For example, over at my side, there has only been 2 people sleeping there for the past week when by right it should be 4. Hopefully my platoon can go back to normal soon......

Life is BeauTifuL.......

I think I am indeed blessed to have met 3 people, who have shaped my life. I'm not sure whether they know it, but they are my 3 closest buddies, or what the chinese call zi ji. It is amazing how I know them, and they are all so different yet so similar. They don't really know each other (well, they might know about each other's existence), but yet I know them quite well. And amazingly, all 3 of them have never gone out together with me with my other friends, but I've gone out with all 3 of them and their other good friends half the time. Amazing right? Haha, it's like I keep going out with so many different types of people that inevitably my social circle has grown.

Another thing that I am thankful about is that all 3 of them appealed and influenced different bits of me -- was there when I was still maturing, another helped to shape my career and future mindset while the other is teaching me a lot about emotions as well as relationships. To me, heaven seems to have arranged things in such a manner that somebody will always be there to support me when I need it.

The best part of it all is that I know that my 3 buddies are indeed true friends, because of the circumstances that we met and got to know each other. I mean, we are not competing against each other, and neither are we vying for power. We purely started out as total strangers who had nothing in common, and the beauty of it all is that we just click and everything else just falls in place.

Anyway I met the Dazhi people yesterday. The turn out was great -- CX, Ghim, Stepf, Steph, JX, Esmee, Isaac and me. FX was busy with hall, KJ got confined, I forgot to contact ZQ, and I didn't know that Mun is back in Singapore, so my apologies to him. Haha, that means approx. 11/12 will turn up if I had made the extra effort to contact all. That is fabulous considering we never met for around a year. I think that is so amazing, how we are like so close to each other even though physically we are all that far apart. Hehe, I'm looking forward to going Taiwan in 2007 with them.

Well, we ate at NYDC, chatted like mad, then 4 of us went KTV to chill out. Well, too ex in my opinion but I felt good. Hmm, it's kind of amazing how we all happens to have the same common circle of friends.

Anyway, I must remind myself to tell CX the dress code next time I go out with him. He turned up in his squad T, which writes NSPI at the back and in front there's the SPF crest with the words officer cadet. Right~ He just wants to let the whole world know that he's a police officer!!! SO many people were all just staring at him! Hmm, what else can be worse? Him turning up in his police attire the next time I go out? Well, I don't know whether I will feel safe or threatened instead.

Well, besides the DaZhi outing, everything else sucks this weekend. I've been working OT ever since I got home on Friday night all the way until now. HE better pay me back lor. Somemore I'm sick and I never get ML (my doctor asked me whether I need one and I actually said no!!! Even WJ also say I dumb, which is very very true!)

Anyway, I must comment how come it is so qiao that almost every time I go out (especially recently), that I will somehow or another meet WJ. Weird~

Endless Road

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last
Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will
A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside

I’m thinking that this song resonates strongly with how I’m feeling right now. Ok, maybe not totally but enough for me to listen to this song 10 times. WHY??? I think I’m really stuck in a tunnel, a dark endless road that just keeps on going and going, without any light to shine my way. I guess its time that the sun rises and shines down on this road. I don’t see the point carrying on being in the shadows. I mean, time is really running out, and before long there will be a break and I really do not know how things will work out… Just give me a chance…or at least know the situation that I am in so that I can assess. But then, I guess there’s always this feeling that won’t go away…

Anyway the past week was totally horrible. It totally wasn’t like the first week of work, in fact, it was like everyone all cramming for exams. But you know what, the exams may be around the corner but I don’t see the holidays anywhere near. That is how horrible things are like right now over at my place. And the best part is, somebody purposely just want to force us to be stretched to our limits. What in the world! The best part is that he has the greatest to lose when things are screwed up, and they already are.

It’s tough working for people who are stingy like mad, and who just care about themselves. Wah lao!!! The more I think the more pissed I am. If a piece of paper hurts so much, then I’m sure an hour hurts to the core!!! On top of that, all the office politics are driving me crazy. A new New Year resolution has just appeared: I shall be frank from now on. When I’m pissed, I should show it. When I love you, I will tell you. IS there a need for us to hide all these?

the 2nd day of new year...

Well well, the first 2 days of 2005 just went by in a flash. I did nothing yesterday except to play my Xbox and watch some videos. Today wasn't much better; woke up, went to East Point, talked to PL (well got a load of stuff of my chest, or was it just a bit?), shopped around, have lunch, carry on walking about and hear I am, back in front of my computer typing.

What can I say, 2005 is a brand new year, and yet I've done nothing new yet. GOd! Can someone please help me?

Booking in later. That's so horrible... I'm like counting and that's roughly another 55 more book ins for me before I ORD. I just can't wait for that to happen!!! Talking about which, I hope I will get 520 soon. 450 is just so little and it is really a bit tough for me to survive ib 450 lor...

There's nothing else for me to blog. I still don't know whether I should go back Dunman next week... Well, at least I'm meeting the Da Zhi people next week!!! It is like a year since we last met. Hmm, let's see, Esmee is going, Steph is going, JX also, CX most prob, me too, Isaac as well, Fx has hall stuff, Stepf and Ghim pending...Kai Jie I don't know, Mun is in Oxford, well at least there's still 6 or 7 of us??? Hmmm, it's a good feeling to meet up with people whom you spend such a good time together in Taiwan. Hmmm, don't know how the zi HigH people are doing over in Taiwan. Hope that they are still very close....

Adios and I will blog next week!

Happy New Year!!!

How time flies…Its now 2005!!! 12 more days to go and I would have been in the army for a long 1 year…Haha, it is so amazing, that less than 1 year ago, I was still savouring my freedom and now, I’m halfway through. I just can’t wait for 2006 to come!

Well, all those regular viewers of my blog will realise how I’ve changed the whole skin and layout. This is so much cuter and nicer right? A New Year calls for new things and changes, just like how I’ve laid out my desires for this year 2005. So called new year resolutions? Haha…

Oh well, when I look back at what I did for 2005 countdown, I inevitably think of the past year’s countdown. Surprisingly, I can’t seem to remember what I did last year!!!! Hmmm, most likely it’s because I countdown at home la~ But for 2003 countdown, I remember being at CX house with the dazhi gang and then finally going to Hong’s house to play mahjong. And then for 2002, I think had a mini squad outing at Orchard Road or somewhere along those lines…. But seriously, yesterday was my first time at the esplanade, and it was quite fun (pity no fireworks). Haha, look at my wish list and I think you might be able to guess how I intend to spend a memorable ’06 countdown, but then, that will only occur if a lot of things are in place…..

I find it so amazing that I can spend every day of the new year, with different groups of people. Cool right? Not that I don’t have buddies, but its exasperating when everyone all just want to stay at home and take a good break (actually I can’t fault them, many are still trying to cope with their new unit life or completing their course, they really do not have the kind of freedom which I have). Oh well, maybe next year, when its countdown for 2006, everyone will have the energy to celebrate its arrival, cause 06 is such an important year for us.

Why am I talking about 2006 when 2005 has just started? I guess this speaks plenty of how much I want 2006 to arrive. Ok, maybe I talk a bit about 2005. It is significant because it will be the last full year that I will spend in Singapore (HOPEFULLY), before I leave for my studies… So that means it’s the year in which I must truly use to spend more time with my friends, staying in contact with some, meeting new people and knowing new friends. Or else it will be real sad, cause I can’t spend the next 4 years with some very important people in my life.

Of course, I must study. God, I’m still typing and not working hard. Later I think I must finish the regression chapters or else I sure die for the papers… Another thing is I must get is my class 3 driving license, cause I need it to do so many things in life. And I don’t want to wait anymore. Guess year 2005 is a busy year in which I learn new things and attain new qualifications.

Hmmm, what else is there about 2005? How can I forget, NDP 2005, my camp’s project for the year. I do hope it will be nice and memorable (hopefully the background work ain’t that taxing and that the rewards will be plentiful!!!), and that at the end of the day, things will work out and I can end 2005 (and my NSF life?) in peace.

Once again, Happy New Year to all who read my blog and please drop a message here and there! Thanks!